Don't ask the W's. (Who - What - When - Why. Just read, don't copy, because I would know. Posted in light of a friend.
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By the time that you’re reading this, I’m gone from our hometown.
I decided against saying goodbye to you personally, because that would be much harder. I don’t know how are you are feeling about this; but in my case, saying goodbye personally is really hard for me to do.
I just want to tell you not to worry about me; I think I’m doing well. I’m trying hard not to think about us, because that is really the point of breaking up, right? It was sad for me to let go of you, because as of this moment, you are still the greatest guy I’ve ever met. But the truth is that the love you’re willing to give is not for me. I don’t deserve any of it. I’m really sorry that I had to drag you into a misshapen phase in my life, because you are a good guy. You deserve someone better, and that is not me.
I believe that both of us are good persons, individually. You are a great person in many ways, and that’s why I loved you. I may be crazy in some aspects, but I still want to believe that I have some redeeming qualities that you liked and made you stay with me even just for a little longer. It’s just that we are not growing together anymore.
Before, I can’t understand why we had to part, but it all made sense after a while. I admire you because you were brave enough to recognize and accept that there was something wrong with our relationship, and that we don’t have the ability to patch up things anymore. May mga bagay na hindi na kayang ayusin, and our relationship was one of those things. I’m sorry because I had to make things even harder for you because of my drunken calls and all the other unimaginable actions that I did. You were right when you said that we should use this time apart to make something better out of ourselves and not to wallow in sadness because that would be a waste of time. I believe that we would be happier if we know that both of us are trying to improve our individual lives. It is only recently that I have come to terms with these things, and I am very thankful to you for that.
I have set aside ample time and thought about this all over. Please do not get me wrong; I really want us to be friends, even best friends at some point. But right now, I just do not think that it is a good idea for us both, especially at this critical time wherein we are both trying to move on. I have grown to accept that I have to learn to live my life apart from you; and you as well. Sooner or later, we have to adjust to the fact that we have long broken up, and that would be hard to do if we are always there for each other. The feelings that we have, or had, for each other do not wear off easily; I think that as time goes, it is becoming more difficult for us to treat each other as friends because we still love each other. Please believe me when I say I tried. I really tried. Pathetic as it may seem, but I have even reached one point wherein I tried to change the way my voice sounds while talking to you; so as to project myself as a friendly buddy to you and not as a person trying to be sweet. But after a while, I realized that I can’t. Mahirap nang magpilit. I can’t pretend anymore that I can be friends with you when deep down I know that I want us to be more than friends. I cannot deny from anyone, most especially from you, that I am still hoping that one day we can work things out again.
Think about this: What if eventually, one of us moved on completely and fell for another? Papano yung nagmamahal pa? Mahirap ‘yun. At least we can save each other from that kind of situation.
I really wish and hope that you would do well. I believe that you will be better and at your happiest in time. You are a great person, mabait ka, matalino ka, masipag ka, mabuti kang anak sa parents mo, at higit sa lahat, God-fearing. There are a lot of good things and blessings in store for you; naghihintay lang ng tamang panahon. With enough patience, I believe that you can achieve everything that you wish for because you deserve all of it. As for now, prayers are all that I can offer. Lagi kitang ipinagdadasal. I really want you to be happy; it does not matter to me if I am part of your happiness or not. Basta masaya ka, okay na rin ako.
Time will tell if we are really meant for each other. If not, we can at least be happy that we would be able to find real love in other places and with other people.
Think of me sometimes. Let’s remember all the good memories and the love we had for each other. I am very grateful to you that once in my life, you made me the happiest girl.
Tuesday, January 18, 2011
Sunday, January 16, 2011
DOTA For Girls
General meaning: Defense Of The Ancients
Earlier this morning, I was trying to find Youtube video guides for DOTA—I am in dire need to defeat Icarus the Phoenix by using Auishta the Enchantress (for the benefit of those who do not play the game, Icarus is the new strength-type hero that came out in version 6.70, along with Tuskarr).
My search came to an end because I happened to open the link of a song called “Mas Mahal Mo Pa Ang Dota” by Dino R. Seriously. I almost burst into laughter because of the many barkada stories I remembered: friends breaking up because the guy chose to play DOTA over spending quality time with his girlfriend, an angry mom barging inside the computer shop persuading her son to go home and help her prepare dinner for their dog Tagpi (and it is 10 o’clock in the evening already), and a guy developing a serious case of urinary tract infection (UTI) because of too much sitting in front of the computer and forgetting to pee on time. All these and more horror stories that can be imagined. Ha ha!
Anyways, in the music video, there is a girl who is lamenting because her boyfriend chose Mirana over her (Mirana is one of those strong agility-type heroes that are always drafted in games because of her strong gank, push, and stunning abilities). The girl wakes up in the morning only to find herself alone because her boyfriend is always out early to play DOTA in the neighbourhood computer shop. Doon sa MTV, may scene pa na binatukan ng girl yung guy sa loob ng computer shop. Sobrang nakakatawa.
Mirana Nightshade
I used to have this issue with my previous boyfriend. I did not really mind him staying out late because of DOTA, but before, I just do not get it why guys get so addicted with the game. I used to find the game redundant; there is no change of sceneries and the screen looks so magulo with all the supposed powers / skills of heroes thrown to opponents and vice versa. I remember in college when I go for printing in computer shops nearby, I always hear guys shouting curses at each other because they seem to be losing or winning. I wonder:
“What is so thrilling about those little ant-like creatures on the screen?”
Due to my insatiable curiosity, I decided to ask one of my guy friends to teach me the game. I remember that the first hero that I played was Kardel Sharpeye. He is the sniper of the Sentinel, kahit galing sa base niya kaya ka niyang i-assasinate.
Kardel Sharpeye
So from Kardel Sharpeye, I slowly moved to playing other heroes such as Razor, Crystal Maiden, Pandaren Brewmaster, and Enchantress (Auishta the Enchantress is my favourite because of her healing skill and her deadly Impetus attack). I can at least testify why girls should stop moaning and lamenting about their boyfriends and play with them instead.
Why girls should try DOTA:
1. It is a great bonding time with your beau.
DOTA is a great way to date. Much better if you girly, can beat the guy (Haha watch out guys!). In fact, when Norman and I first met each other, we played DOTA (he was with Sam and I when I was first being taught). And if you are single, just imagine the many wooing guy eyes you can get if they learn that they are actually duelling with a female. Now, isn’t that cute? :)
Girl playing dota
2. It’s a great stress reliever.
Psychologists say that males deal with stress differently than females. Females deal with pain with much efficiency than males (imagine giving birth and the emotional stress of taking care of your offspring). Girls should at least understand and deal away with pride (at least for now) that guys need emotional outlets to relieve themselves from stress. Aba, tayong mga babae din naman nakakastress tayo lalo na kapag nasa nagging mode na. When it comes to stress, DOTA is the name of the game. Literally.
Hindi ba mas masaya yung guys pagtapos ng laro? Well, in my case, I could stay up until 3:00 a.m. and I wouldn’t feel tired or sleepy, but instead, rejuvenated. So try it once and for all!
Mineski Team
3. It’s a great way to meet new people (and like what I said, if you’re single, it’s time to impress the world with your hero-killing abilities)!
When I started playing DOTA, I was only playing with two or three friends. I can even go to the extent of being pathetic because I even play AI mode (You vs. Computer) when my friends and I can’t set up gaming sprees or simply when I get kicked out of Garena-based games because of being a newbie (minsan ang yayabang talaga ng nasa Garena, hindi makaintindi na kaya nga naglalaro para matuto). Well, there are times when Garena guys don’t kick me out of their games because they learn that I’m a girl and start asking for my email addie or worst, my mobile number. Girls, when this happens, just keep mum and don’t answer. Remember: self preservation. We don’t want to end up looking cheap. ;)
During the past few months, I find myself slowly starting to play in larger groups. Now, I get bored in AI mode. This friend introduces my group to another group then we become fixtures in the computer shop. Last weekend, I even gained new playmates: a little boy and his ahya (kuya, in Chinese)—mind you, his ahya is a member of the Theos team. Norman said Theos is one of the best DOTA-playing groups in the Philippines; a couple (I think the girl plays better than her boyfriend. Mas nachachallenge ako kapag nakakaharap ko yung babae sa lane).
4. DOTA is a strategy game. Enough said.
Think Art of War. Think of Sun Tzu. Contrary to common beliefs, DOTA is not simply won by just killing your opponents. There are lots of issues to be considered—who is going to defend the towers of defense? Who is going to buy the courier (couriers are needed so you could stay on the lane to level up faster than end up being stuck in the long and winding process of going back to the base)? What items should you buy? What are orb effects? What is the fastest way to break the opponents’ towers of defense and push into their base? Sometimes, you can kill your opponents as much as your want but end up losing because much time is wasted on killing rather than breaking their defences. There are also times when the hero’s abilities are not maximized because of buying the wrong items.
Fast thinking. Reflex action. Teamwork. Best strategies. These are just some of the keys to winning a game. DOTA exercises the mind. I realized that the game helped me think faster, and improved how I deal with other people. Now who said that SWOT Analysis can only be used in the corporate world?
Now girls, instead of moping around, why don’t you try tagging along in your friends’ or boyfriend’s games? I think it is better to immerse yourself in your guy’s world than waste quality time getting angry and wondering why Lina Slayer was chosen over you (aside from the fact that if Lina actually comes to life, she is as sexy as hell).
When all else fails, tell me. :) Ako na lang magtuturo sa inyo.
Lina Slayer
Earlier this morning, I was trying to find Youtube video guides for DOTA—I am in dire need to defeat Icarus the Phoenix by using Auishta the Enchantress (for the benefit of those who do not play the game, Icarus is the new strength-type hero that came out in version 6.70, along with Tuskarr).
My search came to an end because I happened to open the link of a song called “Mas Mahal Mo Pa Ang Dota” by Dino R. Seriously. I almost burst into laughter because of the many barkada stories I remembered: friends breaking up because the guy chose to play DOTA over spending quality time with his girlfriend, an angry mom barging inside the computer shop persuading her son to go home and help her prepare dinner for their dog Tagpi (and it is 10 o’clock in the evening already), and a guy developing a serious case of urinary tract infection (UTI) because of too much sitting in front of the computer and forgetting to pee on time. All these and more horror stories that can be imagined. Ha ha!
Anyways, in the music video, there is a girl who is lamenting because her boyfriend chose Mirana over her (Mirana is one of those strong agility-type heroes that are always drafted in games because of her strong gank, push, and stunning abilities). The girl wakes up in the morning only to find herself alone because her boyfriend is always out early to play DOTA in the neighbourhood computer shop. Doon sa MTV, may scene pa na binatukan ng girl yung guy sa loob ng computer shop. Sobrang nakakatawa.
Mirana Nightshade
I used to have this issue with my previous boyfriend. I did not really mind him staying out late because of DOTA, but before, I just do not get it why guys get so addicted with the game. I used to find the game redundant; there is no change of sceneries and the screen looks so magulo with all the supposed powers / skills of heroes thrown to opponents and vice versa. I remember in college when I go for printing in computer shops nearby, I always hear guys shouting curses at each other because they seem to be losing or winning. I wonder:
“What is so thrilling about those little ant-like creatures on the screen?”
Due to my insatiable curiosity, I decided to ask one of my guy friends to teach me the game. I remember that the first hero that I played was Kardel Sharpeye. He is the sniper of the Sentinel, kahit galing sa base niya kaya ka niyang i-assasinate.
Kardel Sharpeye
So from Kardel Sharpeye, I slowly moved to playing other heroes such as Razor, Crystal Maiden, Pandaren Brewmaster, and Enchantress (Auishta the Enchantress is my favourite because of her healing skill and her deadly Impetus attack). I can at least testify why girls should stop moaning and lamenting about their boyfriends and play with them instead.
Why girls should try DOTA:
1. It is a great bonding time with your beau.
DOTA is a great way to date. Much better if you girly, can beat the guy (Haha watch out guys!). In fact, when Norman and I first met each other, we played DOTA (he was with Sam and I when I was first being taught). And if you are single, just imagine the many wooing guy eyes you can get if they learn that they are actually duelling with a female. Now, isn’t that cute? :)
Girl playing dota
2. It’s a great stress reliever.
Psychologists say that males deal with stress differently than females. Females deal with pain with much efficiency than males (imagine giving birth and the emotional stress of taking care of your offspring). Girls should at least understand and deal away with pride (at least for now) that guys need emotional outlets to relieve themselves from stress. Aba, tayong mga babae din naman nakakastress tayo lalo na kapag nasa nagging mode na. When it comes to stress, DOTA is the name of the game. Literally.
Hindi ba mas masaya yung guys pagtapos ng laro? Well, in my case, I could stay up until 3:00 a.m. and I wouldn’t feel tired or sleepy, but instead, rejuvenated. So try it once and for all!
Mineski Team
3. It’s a great way to meet new people (and like what I said, if you’re single, it’s time to impress the world with your hero-killing abilities)!
When I started playing DOTA, I was only playing with two or three friends. I can even go to the extent of being pathetic because I even play AI mode (You vs. Computer) when my friends and I can’t set up gaming sprees or simply when I get kicked out of Garena-based games because of being a newbie (minsan ang yayabang talaga ng nasa Garena, hindi makaintindi na kaya nga naglalaro para matuto). Well, there are times when Garena guys don’t kick me out of their games because they learn that I’m a girl and start asking for my email addie or worst, my mobile number. Girls, when this happens, just keep mum and don’t answer. Remember: self preservation. We don’t want to end up looking cheap. ;)
During the past few months, I find myself slowly starting to play in larger groups. Now, I get bored in AI mode. This friend introduces my group to another group then we become fixtures in the computer shop. Last weekend, I even gained new playmates: a little boy and his ahya (kuya, in Chinese)—mind you, his ahya is a member of the Theos team. Norman said Theos is one of the best DOTA-playing groups in the Philippines; a couple (I think the girl plays better than her boyfriend. Mas nachachallenge ako kapag nakakaharap ko yung babae sa lane).
4. DOTA is a strategy game. Enough said.
Think Art of War. Think of Sun Tzu. Contrary to common beliefs, DOTA is not simply won by just killing your opponents. There are lots of issues to be considered—who is going to defend the towers of defense? Who is going to buy the courier (couriers are needed so you could stay on the lane to level up faster than end up being stuck in the long and winding process of going back to the base)? What items should you buy? What are orb effects? What is the fastest way to break the opponents’ towers of defense and push into their base? Sometimes, you can kill your opponents as much as your want but end up losing because much time is wasted on killing rather than breaking their defences. There are also times when the hero’s abilities are not maximized because of buying the wrong items.
Fast thinking. Reflex action. Teamwork. Best strategies. These are just some of the keys to winning a game. DOTA exercises the mind. I realized that the game helped me think faster, and improved how I deal with other people. Now who said that SWOT Analysis can only be used in the corporate world?
Now girls, instead of moping around, why don’t you try tagging along in your friends’ or boyfriend’s games? I think it is better to immerse yourself in your guy’s world than waste quality time getting angry and wondering why Lina Slayer was chosen over you (aside from the fact that if Lina actually comes to life, she is as sexy as hell).
When all else fails, tell me. :) Ako na lang magtuturo sa inyo.
Lina Slayer
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