The hell with fast communication. Hahaha! Well, at least they tried. Who knows, we might even get back replies after 20 years, inviting us to pay them a visit and enjoy the beautiful shores of some place like Kurikaktong. Ho ho.
If sending messages to beings in the outerspace might be possible, I really wish that sending messages to people that we would be able to meet in the future would ALSO be possible. If that would be the case, I wish I could send a message to a future love, or even to a future friend that I would be able to meet along the way. I would tell them that I am hoping that the speed of us meeting together would hasten, so as I could share to them who I really am, as well as my joys and pains.
Letter to a future love:
Dear Guy From The Future,
As I am writing this letter, I am thinking about how thankful I am for having experienced all of the hardships in love in the past year (2009). I must admit that some of those hardships are self-inflicted, but I also do not deny that my heart was badly broken by blinded idea of a person to love. It wasn't beautiful; by grace, it was even ugly, but the thing is, I learned a lot. Separation taught me what real love is. I also learned that for us to be able to devote ourselves to another, we must love and accept ourselves FIRST completely.
I do no deny that right now, I am still trying to fix a broken heart. By a broken heart, I do not mean to say that I am mad, angry, or sad to the point of committing suicide. My heart is broken because I was disappointed that my hopes were not fulfilled. I am trying very hard to think that this opportunity to mend my heart is God's way to make me stronger and more matured than before, so that when I can finally meet you, I am ready than ever and would be able to handle all responsibilities that are entangled with love.
If the time comes that we would finally meet each other, I promise you that I will love you with all my heart, with no hesitations and confusions. I'll share everything there is about me, my hopes, my dreams, my good and bad sides. I will take you to places that I love, including the neighborhood bookstore where I love sneaking into a corner and finishing a book from morning until night time. We'll enjoy cups of coffee along with laughter.
If ever you'd break my heart, that's okay. My past experiences have helped shape me into the stronger person that I am now. I'd think of our future breakup as another phase where I can tune in to myself and learn from the situation. The important thing is that once, we have shared ourselves to one another and made each other happy. I'm sure that God has a purpose for everything that we would meet along the way. But as much as we can, I really wish that we won't break each other's hearts. I really am hoping that you, the guy I'm meeting next, is the one I'm spending forever with.
Excited to meet you,
Jo
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